Morning Quiet Time with Jesus Stop bringing what you see others do in their relationship with God into yours. The same way all natural relationships are different,  spiritual relationships are as well. What works with you and God isn't going to work in my relationship with Him. What we see others do and how they flow with God is different than how you flow with Him. Don't get upset that you aren't up bright eyed and bushy tail at 5:30 in the morning praying the heavens down. God wants you on the 10 pm watch. Don't feel weird that God speaks to you in un-traditional ways (through birds chirping or thunderstorms). Don't get frustrated that your passion and fervor doesn't come across like the next one. God designed us individually unique and that reflects in our individual relationships with Him. Blessings

This morning, while waiting for my son's school bus to arrive, I began taking my nail polish off.  I was only on the second nail and it seemed like 10 minutes had gone by.  The school bus arrived and off to school the Prince went.  As I continued removing the nail polish, I said out loud "wow this is taking longer than I thought to remove." God said, "that's just like sin". Me: "Sir?" God: "It's easy to sin because you were born in sin and shaped in iniquity.  But it's not easy to 'take sin off'.'  It's not just a quick 'say a prayer and I will forgive you'.  The same way you were determined to get ALL the nail polish off your nails, is the same way you have to be about removing ALL the sin in your life.  If you do a rush job, there's still a speck of polish here and there on your nails.  And many people are okay with that.  I'm not.  That's unacceptable to me.  You think it's okay because

This morning as I was having my QTWJ (quiet time with Jesus), I simply said, "Lord I love You". And as soon as I said it, I heard God gently say, "if you love me, keep my commands." (John 14:15).  All is could say was "yes my Lord." It was a gentle reminder to me, and to us all that love is an action word.  While it's nice to tell God how much we love Him, it's another thing to SHOW Him that we love Him.  We show that we love Him by being obedient.  We show Him we love Him by our service.  We show we love Him by feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, and sheltering the homeless.  We show we love Him by loving our fellow brothers and sisters in spite of what they do or say to us.  We show Him we love Him through our worship. God doesn't just want to HEAR our love for Him, He wants to SEE it!  The same way you show your spouse or your children or someone you care about how much you love them, God desires that too.  The same way you go o

The photo on the left (pink dress & hat) is of my very first fashion show in Baltimore, MD in 2000. Since I am only 5'6", I don't fit the requirements for a runway model, so I had to make sure I was skinny enough to be considered. The picture on the right was a fashion show for designer Crissy Phillips in Philadelphia in 2014 (I think). Every time I look at this picture, now, I can only just give thanks and praise that I was spared.  I did not end up a casualty of the disease that had me in bondage for so long. At the age of 24, I was barely 100 pounds.  But I didn't think that was a problem.  I was only focused on one thing: being thin!  If I would have even imaged myself as the picture on the right, I probably would have sacrificed all I had to get some kind of plastic surgery to prevent weight gain.  See, my left picture self looked at my right picture self as fat.  Although I am still small, compared to what I was, my thinking was I was fat. Every time I

Every morning when I wake up, I open my Morning Meditation playlist on YouTube and just sit.  I don't pray (yet) or do anything else.  I just sit. Do you know how hard it is to just be still?  It's one thing to be quiet.  But to be still takes a greater discipline.  Because in being still, you have to silence the "inner thoughts"  the "inner voices".  I'm the type of person, if I wake up in the middle of the night, I can NOT think about anything or I will be awake.  It can be the simplest thing.  Once my mind gets going, there's no turning it off. Even to go back to sleep for a few precious moments of snoozing. As I sit, usually on the bed, I focus on the music that I am listen to.  It's all instrumental.  No words, no even instrumentals of songs I know.  Just strings, flutes, and piano.  Anyone that knows me, knows I LOVE a good string driven song, especially if a Cello is involved. I don't talk to God (yet), I don't read a scrip

Yes, you read that correct.  Having an eating disorder is an addiction.  For me, it started out as an addiction to be thin.   I mean I was obsessed. I would look at pictures of women in magazines and on TV and wish that I could be as thin as they were. I would put certain pictures on the wall as my goal!   Yea I covered it up by the fact that it was a model and I just liked the clothing that she was wearing or I liked the pose. I was a great master of disguise.   I was addicted to not eating I was addicted to binging I was addicted to purging I was addicted to diet pills I was addicted to the rush I was addicted to the control I was addicted to how I looked I was addicted to the attention  The many nights I stayed to myself not wanting to leave the house because hanging with friends meant eating food.... The many nights I wanted to hang out with friends because...... My thoughts were all over the place Sometimes I was up, sometimes I was down Most of the time I just

Eating Disorder Testimony Please excuse the sound quality of this video.  This was the very first time I openly shared my story of my battle with Anorexia and Bulimia.  I connected with my sister Pamela with an organization called Girls Like Us via Myspace (I know ancient history) and she asked me to share my story at her event she was having.   I was so nervous.  I didn't know what to say or how to make it sound pretty. But all I needed to share was my truth from my heart.  It didn't matter how shaky my voice was.  It didn't matter how many times I said um.  All I know is that some young lady need to hear my story!  They needed to hear there was someone just like them.  Someone that understood.  Someone that "got it." The same way I shared with complete strangers that day, I'm sharing this with you in hopes that it gets shared with someone else.  Whether it's someone you know personally that is struggling with an eating disorder or if Y

February 26 - March 4 is National Eating Disorder Awareness Week.  This is something that is very near and dear to me because I have overcome two eating disorders (anorexia nervosa and bulimia).  Having suffered with this illness for over 12 years, it's not just something one forgets they over came. During this week, I will be sharing bits of my testimony and the journey to over come battling this awful disease.  Some of the things I'll share are: -what led me to begin purging after I ate. -how it became more than wanting to be skinny. -dispelling the "it's a white girl only" thing. -and more. Please keep me in prayer as I share and pray that someone is blessed by the words that they read.  Pray that it touches someone enough to want to be able to over come whatever eating disorder that may be battling. Hugs and Love, Jenelle The Worship Writer

MOMENT'em Focus I had the opportunity to be interview by Amia Freeman of MOMENT'em Faith & Fitness Leadership.  It was just candid conversations.  Two sisters in Christ chatting about Jesus over coffee (tea for me 😊) I pray you are blessed by our chat. We  busted down the lies that have kept many stuck.  We also talked about the tools needed    to help you live the life God has called you to live. Be blessed,

This morning in my prayer time, as I was thanking God for this new day, He showed me something awesome. Yes, today is a brand new day.  A day never seen before.  It's like a blank page in a journal.  But what God showed me is this: This day has already been planned by Him.  This day already has things that will transpire.  The page may appear blank to us but it's not really.  I remember watching an episode of "Matlock" (what y'all know about that lol).  And the key to solving the case was a notepad that had been left by the telephone on a desk in the hotel room. As genius as Matlock is, he took a pencil and began coloring the blank page of the note pad which revealed who the killer was.  The bible says in Psalms 37:23  The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way."  You see, the pages aren't really blank.  We just have to walk the path that God has already set before us.  We are the pencil and as we walk throu

So this morning as I was making my post workout/breakfast smoothie, I dropped one of the empty capsules on the floor.  Let me back up.....instead of swallowing the capsules of the different supplements I take, I open them up and add them to my smoothies.  I learned this from hubby.  This is better because the ingredients are immediately ingested.  Have you ever dropped a capsule in a small amount of liquid?  What was the result?  okay well that's not the reason for this blog.... So as I said, I dropped the capsule on the floor.  I stood there looking for it but couldn't see where it fell.  It wasn't until I crouched down low to the ground did I find it hidden in the corner.  As I was picking it up to put it in the trash, God told me that's what we have to do.  A lot of us have a surface knowledge but God wants us to get lower and go deeper to find the treasures that He has for us.  By treasures I mean the wisdom, joy, peace, healing, deliverance, and so much more. 

This was a blog that I had in my draft for almost 6 years!  Not sure why it never got published, or let alone finished.  But as I read over it, I understand a little more... Do we really understand what it means to seek Him first? That means inquire of Him first. Before asking anyone else. Place first into your thinking Kingdom impact and results. Does what I'm about to do or even say benefit the Kingdom in a positive way? Many times a "good" idea is not always a "God" ideas.  So it's important that we seek God first in all decisions not matter how great or small. ======================================================================== 7/12/2012 "The spirit of the Lord is saying: Seek me first. I have a lot going on in my mind in regards to what God wants me to do. I’m searching for new employment. I don’t want anything full time b/c I would like the flexibility that I have now.  I’m wondering if I should try to work on my own. So many tho

Hey there my friend, Yes it's been a while since I've posted.   It's not that I stopped writing....I NEVER stop writing.  I always have a pen in hand and paper close by.  I had just stopped sharing on the blog.  But I am determined to blog more this year.  I'm going to post  at least share once a week on here.  Whether a I share something from my heart or the latest song that is ministering to me, I will be more diligent in sharing. Thank you so much for the encouragement in my writings. Continue to be blessed by the words that come across your screen. Hugs and Love, Jenelle  "The Worship Writer"