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This lonely road.....of addiction

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Yes, you read that correct.  Having an eating disorder is an addiction.  For me, it started out as an addiction to be thin.   I mean I was obsessed. I would look at pictures of women in magazines and on TV and wish that I could be as thin as they were. I would put certain pictures on the wall as my goal!   Yea I covered it up by the fact that it was a model and I just liked the clothing that she was wearing or I liked the pose. I was a great master of disguise.   I was addicted to not eating I was addicted to binging I was addicted to purging I was addicted to diet pills I was addicted to the rush I was addicted to the control I was addicted to how I looked I was addicted to the attention  The many nights I stayed to myself not wanting to leave the house because hanging with friends meant eating food.... The many nights I wanted to hang out with friends because...... My thoughts were all over the place Sometimes I was up, sometimes I was down Most of the time I just

Eating Disorder Testimony

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Eating Disorder Testimony Please excuse the sound quality of this video.  This was the very first time I openly shared my story of my battle with Anorexia and Bulimia.  I connected with my sister Pamela with an organization called Girls Like Us via Myspace (I know ancient history) and she asked me to share my story at her event she was having.   I was so nervous.  I didn't know what to say or how to make it sound pretty. But all I needed to share was my truth from my heart.  It didn't matter how shaky my voice was.  It didn't matter how many times I said um.  All I know is that some young lady need to hear my story!  They needed to hear there was someone just like them.  Someone that understood.  Someone that "got it." The same way I shared with complete strangers that day, I'm sharing this with you in hopes that it gets shared with someone else.  Whether it's someone you know personally that is struggling with an eating disorder or if Y

N.E.D. Awareness Week

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February 26 - March 4 is National Eating Disorder Awareness Week.  This is something that is very near and dear to me because I have overcome two eating disorders (anorexia nervosa and bulimia).  Having suffered with this illness for over 12 years, it's not just something one forgets they over came. During this week, I will be sharing bits of my testimony and the journey to over come battling this awful disease.  Some of the things I'll share are: -what led me to begin purging after I ate. -how it became more than wanting to be skinny. -dispelling the "it's a white girl only" thing. -and more. Please keep me in prayer as I share and pray that someone is blessed by the words that they read.  Pray that it touches someone enough to want to be able to over come whatever eating disorder that may be battling. Hugs and Love, Jenelle The Worship Writer